picking up the pieces

broken love
Originally uploaded by Zha

Here’s what I am going to do. I am going to get enough sleep. I am going to remember how to dance without 6 gin-and-tonics inside me. I am going to read as much Walt Whitman as I need to. I am going to go to bed earlier, and get up earlier. I am going to swim. I’m going to remember to eat. I am going to try to remember how lucky I am to have good health and an amazing family of people I’m related to and people I’ve collected and a job and somewhere nice to live. I am going to keep talking. I’m going to look forward to a Christmas with the hot sun on my skin. I’m going to plan adventures, even tiny ones. I’m going to try to be kind. I’m going to practice making decisions again, small ones like when to go on holiday and where to take my dad out to dinner. I’m going to write. I’m going to believe, when I can. I’m going to make my bed every morning. I’m going to read. I’m going to eat more apples. I’m going to stop crying in the sandwich shop when the lady asks if the mayonnaise should be on one side or both. I’m going to. Just watch me.